February 2012
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“One fact is constant: Self-acceptance is a choice. You live in your body every day, and I live in mine. Some days it’s difficult to live in my body, as I imagine it’s difficult for you to live in yours. I used to hear a voice in my head every day telling me to obsess about my thighs. That voice is still there, but now it whispers instead of screams. I told the voice I...
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Taking control
Difficult events have happened over the past few years yet I have not been beaten by anorexia again. Why?
I may sometimes use food as a way of coping with challenging emotions but I have never allowed anorexia to control me once more. There are many reasons for this:
I am about 90 per cent recovered and have learned how to be in control
I know other ways of coping and have distraction skills
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I am a snail.
This is an apt symbol for me:
I am closed up inside myself – I keep everything locked up inside
There is a chance of unravelling; opening up to someone but only my counsellor
I carry my safe home with me
I have antennae to check places are safe
But the snail has a huge journey to take
She has to climb a huge house; filled with monsters and all the things she must overcome
Can Rach the snail make...
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My rolemodels
Crystal Renn -recovered from anorexia
My mam -anorexic survivor and person who saved my life!
All the ambassadors -who are amazing in every way
Cristina Ricci -recovered from anorexia
Kate Thornton -anorexic survivor
Audrey Hepburn
Grace Kelly
Jennifer Anniston -she showed how to behave when your husband runs off with someone else
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Contradictions
Sometimes I contradict myself. At times I want a boyfriend because it would be lovely to have someone to love, who loves me bacck, to have someone who thinks I’m worth spending time with and who will surprise me with little things. Yet when I do date, I get scared; I am scared of many things.
I worry that they won’t like me; the real me.
I am scared of being hurt again and I closed...
January 2012
33 posts
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20 things I achieved in 2011
1. Travelled in Australia on my own.
2. Ate in a restaurant by myself.
3. Cuddled a koala.
4. Went snorkelling in the Great Barrier Reef - absolutely amazing!
5. Went white water rafting - and managed to stay in the whole time!
6. Managed a workshop at an even in Brighton for My Personal Best
7. Became the co-manager of My Personal Best’s twitter
8. Interviewed by the Shields Gazette
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I'm not the kind of girl guys fall in love with.
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I’m afraid to admit it but I’m not as over my ex as I thought. As soon as he starts talking to me again, I somehow can’t say no. I didn’t expect to still be getting with him almost four years later. Especially not after everything he has done to me.
Am I only attracted to guys who further fuel my self-hatred?
Is it another form of self-harming?
Or am I just pulled back...
“Someone remind me why I shouldn’t ever listen to my ex?”
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Must remind myself how much my ex hurt me.
He may have apologised for everything and seeming to be a lot nicer.
I may miss him when I’m sad.
I may be comfortable around him.
He may make me smile.
But he never appreciates me nor makes the effort.
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I realised the other day - I only allow four people to upset me.
1. Myself
2. My dad
3. Anorexia
4. My ex
It all needs to stop.
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“Challenges are what makes life interesting; overcoming them makes life...”
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“To wish you were someone else is to waste the person you are”
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“Never make someone your everything coz when they’re gone, you’ll...”
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“I owe it to everyone who died from an eating disorder to make the most of my...”
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“When you let go of trying to figure out everything and trying to be perfect, it...”
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“No matter what try not to have any regrets. Think twice before you take that...”
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“If you want the one who will treat you right, you have to first let go of the...”
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“I’m a tough cookie. I DON’T care who you are”
– Katy Perry
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“When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first...”
December 2011
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Demi Lovato
The next time you want to label someone ‘fat’ or ‘thin’, just say whoever it is, is beautifully made. But this isn’t just for me, it’s for you girls too. Just saying it once to yourself every morning, “I am beautifully made”, can change how we feel about ourselves.
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Lizzie Miller
It’s crazy that fashion recognizes only one body type and if you don’t fit it, you’re considered fat. We need to be celebrating skinny girls, curvy girls, tall girls, short girls, black girls, Asian girls and all nationalities.
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